Re: Life Lessons

Interesting film but I wish the audio was better- I was left to imagine about 50% of what the man in particular was saying. Anyway, I guess it was about sexual politics in the art world but the thing it kinda got me thinking about was maybe a little different. I was thinking about creative people in relationships and how toxic it can be to women I think especially to be dating someone who is creatively accomplished when they are just starting out. I think it hinders your own creativity and sucks out your confidence because you are comparing yourself to that person and their accomplishments. I pretty much stopped all my creative pursuits somehow after high school and always felt kind of restless and unhappy. I ended up also always being friends with creative professionals- we always got along and i think I ws attracted to that aspect of their personality. Anyway, when I was 24 I kind of had this realisation about how I had stopped doing so many things and that it was making me happy but I remember feeling very scared to start doing anything- I think that was made worse because I was dating a professional musician who was well known on the island(where im from). Anyway, I always felt self consious around him - like worried that I could not match up to him somehow even though that was a hardly a concern to him. Anyway, I ended up breaking up with him and moving away and have been working on creative things since then.... I dont think I could have really worked on all that stuff if i had stayed there and dated him. Anyway, thats what the movie kinda got me thinking about. I remember when i was dating him that people would learn that and since his name is well known they would say "good for you" to me which i always found really insulting- like what is good for me?? his accomplishments are not mine? I dunno. I just found it insulting.

Anyway, I am still friends with him and I no longer feel sort of creatively intimidated by him.